Three months

eighty-nine days

two-thousand one-hundred and thirty-six hours

one-thousand four-hundred and twenty-one pictures of you in my iphoto library

one kiss on your head every night before bed

countless morning smiles

several tears of overwhelming happiness and a few of total exhaustion

at least one pinch a day to make sure this is real

a best friend

a brand new family

My life before you were born is just a rapid succession of fuzzy moments leading up to the second we locked eyes. Each one masterfully engineered to put us at the exact moment where you suddenly existed. Created and nurtured into my little baby boy. Oh, of all the possibilities we got you little Max! And what they say is true. Light shed on every cliche in the book and an acute awareness of why those expressions are so overused by parents everywhere. Everyday is better than the one before it. Watching you grow quickly into your personality and your smiles and your wrinkly forehead. Every corner we turn is a new discovery and your big green eyes light up in wonderment. I feel so lucky to be your Mommy. And although it has been three short months since you came into our lives it feels like forever and I can't imagine living without you. Your whole life stretches out before us but for now we are living in tiny precious moments. Moments where you always wake up in the best mood with the biggest grin. Moments where you study your hands and shove them in their entirety into your mouth periodically gagging yourself. Moments where every tree outside puts you into a peaceful trance and you gaze inquisitively up into the sky. Moments where in small groups you pick out your Mommy + Daddy and just stare at us. Moments where you sleep sprawled out taking up the entire bed and kick at people/objects that interfere with this activity. Moments where you cock your head and play coy with a smile so big it squints your eyes shut.  Millions of moments that I tuck deep into my heart so full it feels like it could burst and yet so easily expandable because of you. 

oh how you make my heart sing